My thoughts on becoming a dad...

As most of you know I'm on the verge of becoming a father of my first child, a baby girl by the name of Makenna to be exact. I cant even begin to explain the emotions that have gone through my mind body and soul over the past 8 months of my life. From the day we found out we were having a baby to this morning when I kissed my wife's belly to say good-bye for the day. There is a certain feeling that takes over your body when you know you are going to have this tiny little life that will look to you for everything for the rest of their lives.

I will be the first to tell you that I am an ignorant man when it comes to children and definitely little girls. At first I was like most young men having a child for the first time. Its a BOY and I wont except anything else. I was shocked and stunned as myself and 18 of my closest family and friends sat the ultrasound room that day. To my demise and embarrassment, we... were having a baby girl. "WOOOOO haha Trevor you were wrong hahaha" filled the room as everyone pointed at me because I was certain it was a boy. Little did I know they were the ones who got the short end of the stick.

The relationship between a daughter and her dad is like nothing else on earth. As I felt the deadening sound of my "people" rubbing it in, I thought of the relationship my mom has with her father. They are the epitome of a father-daughter relationship. They talk everyday even though they live 388.6 miles away from each other. They know each other better than anyone else but god. I was the man saying " I am a man, I don't even have the ability to make a girl its impossible" and now I am sitting at work writing a blog about how stupid I was and how mesmerized I am by the fact that I am going to raise a a baby girl to become a strong minded beautiful woman.

It's funny how much you are willing to do for this person that you can't see, you can't hear, and makes the person you love more than anything else in the world act like shes possessed by the devil at times. I am working my a** off working 60-70 hour work weeks for some little girl that I can't even hug when I get home yet. Then again it feels so natural and easy.

So I am starting to get back on my blog to get rid of my anxiety, and emotions that are changing on a daily basis and hopefully I can help some of my readers in the process...

Till Next time